Back Amongst the Blog World

I'm back amongst my blogging buddies once again and getting my fingers limbered back up for the emails and posts and comments. ;)

I can't say that anything has really changed (with my mood) and all my previous problems still haunt me and not sure why he's given me back these privileges yet.

I realize that with my post yesterday (that was removed), I was disobeying him. However, it was not intended as an act of defiance. It was just me trying to do something that I don't do so well, which is organize my thoughts and feelings and let them out. Perhaps this was the wrong venue seeing how I was grounded from the blog.

I'm sorry I disobeyed you, Sir. I love you more than anything and I know you're beside yourself on what to do with me. That's not your fault though, it's mine. I'm a real troubled piece of work right now and I've shut off the world. You haven't failed me and I honestly don't believe I have failed you. I've disappointed you greatly, I know. You will get me there through, you always do. I admire greatly your patience and perseverance with me. I'm sorry I think I have to be so strong all the time. I know I don't have to go it alone, but yet I am, so to speak.

I pray you don't grow too weary of this and throw your hands up. I'm trying... slowly, but I'm trying.