The Day That Things Would Change Forever - Part 1
He walked in the door and immediately called her name. He was going to put an end to this nonsense once and for all. I can’t even leave town for two days, he thought to himself. He searched all the places in the house she would normally be, but there was no sign of her. Her moods had gotten the best of her. He blamed himself for letting it go on longer than he should have. He always tried to let her work at her inner conflicts independently until they reached the point he would decidedly see that she was no longer trying.
She despised needing him like this. She wanted to do it all on her own, but the stresses she faced everyday became too overwhelming for her at times. This would prove to be one of those times. She struggled for days, trying to get the “want” to ask for his help. It didn’t seem that asking had ever been a strong point of hers, but he had serious plans for changing that. They hadn’t been together all that long, but he knew her like they had been together for an eternity. She wasn’t all too comfortable at first, him being able to see straight through to her soul. She was a very private person, keeping her thoughts, fears, joys, and fantasies pent up deep down inside her. She learned early on in life this was the only way to be truly “safe”. She went through life wearing her smile on the outside for everyone to see. She had numerous friends in her life and one best friend. No one really new the true her. She shared everything with her best friend, well, almost everything. There were certain things that were reserved for only her.
He had left her Tuesday without giving her what he felt she needed with great reluctance. He often found himself being such a softie with her at times, only to try to let her learn to accept who she is and to try to work out her own conflicts herself to some degree. This doesn’t work out so well sometimes. He vowed this would be the last time he doubted himself. He finally decided that he knew what was best for her in the time they had been together, and it was time to put it into consistent action. No more would he set back and watch her do this to herself.
She was nowhere to be found in the house. She hadn’t left him a note saying that she had gone out. Rude, thoughtless, and inconsiderate, he thought to himself. When they spoke on the phone this morning she was just too quiet. He had told her to be home when he returned, and they needed to sit down and have a good heart to heart talk. He could just picture her rolling her eyes as he heard her huff. Yes, once and for all this will end. I love her way too much for this to continue, he decided.
He picked up his suitcase that he dropped at the door in his search for her and headed upstairs to change his clothes. Before heading downstairs again he picked up the phone and called two of her bratty friends to see if they were with her or had heard from her. They hadn’t. He sighed deeply and headed back downstairs and grabbed his keys from the stand and headed out the door in search of her. He knew the first place to look. It was just a short distance from their house and a place she always went to when she was feeling like this.
He headed down the road that was lined with beautiful Bradford Pear trees in bloom. She loved this time of year. Everything was so vibrant around the lake. She loved the renewing that transformed this time of year right before her eyes. She could set on the bank of the lake for hours on end, staring out into her own little world. The number of times he wished she would just open her heart to him were endless.
As he approached the pier he saw her sitting there, knees pulled up to her chest, arms wrapped around them tightly. She was totally unaware that he was even near. He gently spoke her name, not wanting to startle her. She didn’t even hear his voice. He spoke her name gently once more, and he sighed as he startled her, bringing her to her feet in a fury. He tried to embrace her gently as she rose, but she struggled against him. She was out of control. She pounded her fists against his chest as he tried to pull her to him. “You scared the hell out of me!” She screamed. “How dare you!” She continued to try to free herself from his embrace. He decided to unleash his hold on her for fear that any onlookers would come to her because of her raised voice. He spoke in a very soothing voice to her, trying to get her to come back home with him. She would return with him now, she just didn’t know it yet. It was time for a different approach.
He sat down beside her quietly on the bank of the lake. She continued to stare off into her little world again, wishing he would just leave her alone. He wasn’t leaving without her, but he wasn’t going to push her either. He would just sit there quietly with her until she decided to speak, or until the few people that were there decided it was time to go home. Not many people came here, which is why this was her favorite place of the lake. He knew they’d be gone soon, and then he could get down to business. He would simply wait it out. Little did she know what was in store for her...
She despised needing him like this. She wanted to do it all on her own, but the stresses she faced everyday became too overwhelming for her at times. This would prove to be one of those times. She struggled for days, trying to get the “want” to ask for his help. It didn’t seem that asking had ever been a strong point of hers, but he had serious plans for changing that. They hadn’t been together all that long, but he knew her like they had been together for an eternity. She wasn’t all too comfortable at first, him being able to see straight through to her soul. She was a very private person, keeping her thoughts, fears, joys, and fantasies pent up deep down inside her. She learned early on in life this was the only way to be truly “safe”. She went through life wearing her smile on the outside for everyone to see. She had numerous friends in her life and one best friend. No one really new the true her. She shared everything with her best friend, well, almost everything. There were certain things that were reserved for only her.
He had left her Tuesday without giving her what he felt she needed with great reluctance. He often found himself being such a softie with her at times, only to try to let her learn to accept who she is and to try to work out her own conflicts herself to some degree. This doesn’t work out so well sometimes. He vowed this would be the last time he doubted himself. He finally decided that he knew what was best for her in the time they had been together, and it was time to put it into consistent action. No more would he set back and watch her do this to herself.
She was nowhere to be found in the house. She hadn’t left him a note saying that she had gone out. Rude, thoughtless, and inconsiderate, he thought to himself. When they spoke on the phone this morning she was just too quiet. He had told her to be home when he returned, and they needed to sit down and have a good heart to heart talk. He could just picture her rolling her eyes as he heard her huff. Yes, once and for all this will end. I love her way too much for this to continue, he decided.
He picked up his suitcase that he dropped at the door in his search for her and headed upstairs to change his clothes. Before heading downstairs again he picked up the phone and called two of her bratty friends to see if they were with her or had heard from her. They hadn’t. He sighed deeply and headed back downstairs and grabbed his keys from the stand and headed out the door in search of her. He knew the first place to look. It was just a short distance from their house and a place she always went to when she was feeling like this.
He headed down the road that was lined with beautiful Bradford Pear trees in bloom. She loved this time of year. Everything was so vibrant around the lake. She loved the renewing that transformed this time of year right before her eyes. She could set on the bank of the lake for hours on end, staring out into her own little world. The number of times he wished she would just open her heart to him were endless.
As he approached the pier he saw her sitting there, knees pulled up to her chest, arms wrapped around them tightly. She was totally unaware that he was even near. He gently spoke her name, not wanting to startle her. She didn’t even hear his voice. He spoke her name gently once more, and he sighed as he startled her, bringing her to her feet in a fury. He tried to embrace her gently as she rose, but she struggled against him. She was out of control. She pounded her fists against his chest as he tried to pull her to him. “You scared the hell out of me!” She screamed. “How dare you!” She continued to try to free herself from his embrace. He decided to unleash his hold on her for fear that any onlookers would come to her because of her raised voice. He spoke in a very soothing voice to her, trying to get her to come back home with him. She would return with him now, she just didn’t know it yet. It was time for a different approach.
He sat down beside her quietly on the bank of the lake. She continued to stare off into her little world again, wishing he would just leave her alone. He wasn’t leaving without her, but he wasn’t going to push her either. He would just sit there quietly with her until she decided to speak, or until the few people that were there decided it was time to go home. Not many people came here, which is why this was her favorite place of the lake. He knew they’d be gone soon, and then he could get down to business. He would simply wait it out. Little did she know what was in store for her...
posted by little one | 12/03/2005 11:45:00 AM
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